Ya know when you like someone so much but then u don't hv someone to talk with bcs u might die or mentally unstable bc u forget how to breath and then die like hell man. I'm in that very situation right now. I prefer not to talk about this to anyone like i prefer virtually bah its safer and ill look mentally stable in this kind of way.
You know this one hot guy in my college which is so handsome and tall and all like totally my type except for the fact that he doesn't exceed 180 and that's okay bcs he looks tall enough. and i consider that as a yes-yes. Butttt, he got gf which i don't care its not like I'm gonna date him though he doesn't hv one. Like u know, just... I'm having a crush on him and he doesn't know my existance we just look at each other and i feel like not breathing but he looks normal and ok I'm weird what even.


I never tell anyone about this thing bcs it will make me lose my focus bcs swooning is not a right thing to do when ure a matriks student. Just one year bah. Study, makan, mandi, pergi tandas, physics and its 15 chapters per sem, quiz, exam and all you did in one year. There's not a even one second to waste on a mere guy. If sleep then yeah. I sleep for approximately 8hrs a day here which is odd for a matriks student. Like they usually sleep fo 5 to 6hrs jak bah. Hahahahhaha tu pun i still sleep in lecture hall. What the hell.
Okay thats so random. Soooooo, it's 5.47am. I woke up bcs of my roommate. She's crying over her grandpa and now were still in middle of mencari tiket, she pinjam my tablet, which i just renewed its data like at 5am. And I'm sure its almost hbs now since they gooogle sana sini, and i don't mind. I'm a good roommate bah kekeekkekeke
Alright. I dreamt of my crush last night. Well last night as in just a few moment like not moment like hrs ago. Okaywhat the hell. I'm starting to swoon even more over him bah ni lepas jumpa smalam. Forgive me dad. I'll try harder on pspm bcs ups is suck af don't even mention about my grades. I came here to study yeah so let's end this morning ranting which was suppose t be last nights post but then i slept while wtching smtm ok bye. Zicos hot af bye

p/s DRAG ME DOWN MV IS SO ASDGHHJKL I JUSTWHY LIAMS GETTING HOTTER WHAT

So basically I'm writing this while laying on bed on one side bcs I'm far too exhausted of todays banks mission. i woke up at 9 which is undeniably early since i got a wake up call from my dad saying were gonna go the bank today. So i took bath and then helping my brother rolling some kimbabs while waiting for my dad to fetch me up. I rolled about two??? And the rest my brothers.


 And then went to Bank Simpanan Nasional(BSN) first to make new account book since mine is missing kekekek i get a pretty good piece of mind from my dad i swear... Then we went to Bank Rakyat, since on of the requirement(i guess) for matriks is to have a bank rakyat account, which i don't have one. So i bukak account baru hari ni yay. And the service was soooo good compare to bsn(i guess) and then we went to baitulmal. Bcs i requested for bantuan to melanjutkan pelajaran hahahahah that's what i wrote when they asked for 'untuk tujuan apa' ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

 Then we had our lunch, well basically just me bcs my dad is on his diet i guess hahahahaha i ate some tofu, kari ayam, and taugeh with tofu, yet again. And then, my dad(and me) literally forget about asking how to pay for matriks dekat bsn tadi. So we went back againnn to BSN. With such a hot weather i just ugh ok. Dah la pakai motor kut, since my dad said it's easier with moto. We went through traffic jams and all i just sigh. Before we went for BSN, my dad bring me to his office first. Since my dads office is in the same building with the biggest shopping mall in Sibu, i went for a window shoppping a bit then follow my dad to his office which is on 13th floor of Wisma Sanyan.

Then, we went to BSN. And asked how to pay for the matriks and the lady said to brong the surat tawaran, LIKE IVE ALREADY HAVE IT WITH ME NOW IT LA AHJUMMA WTF she said there's another borang wtf wtf there's no other borang la ahjumonim is2g then my dad said, we'll pay it tomorrow and went back. Oh before we went back, my dad went to this one kilang, i think it's Aik Seng or something??? Hahahahah he bought one kg kacang there. Hahaha. Anddd, as soon as i sampai rumah, my right feet is totally cramp though hahahahah. And did i ever mention that i get cramped A LOT AND EASILY NO? Okay now I'm telling ya. I barely walk like ouR house is on the third floor and i was struggling to walk ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ and now I'm here in room, lulabying myself by writing hah ok till here annyeong ^o^
P/s : got some photos of my dads birthday yesterday ay 52nd birthday yo